An Affair By Any Other Name…
When alone with my thought and think about it, I find myself trying to to justify it and coddle myself with the excuse/"justification", "Well, it wasn’t that bad… it was only an emotional affair.
I know that there is no difference in the two, and having emotionally cheated twice, I also have a small idea of just how much I have hurt BS.
I guess what I searching for in this post is how to combat the ego stroking of "at least I didn’t physically cheat on her." I realize that is deflection and a thinking error, but as I said it is just me stroking my ego.
How does one take a good feeling and make it feel so wrong that they no longer desire it?
1 comment posted: Sunday, August 31st, 2025
I’ve Done too Much and not Enough All at Once
I have lied to, emotionally cheated on, and hid my medical bills from my partner. I tell myself that I did it to put her first, the lying and hiding medical bills from her. I went on a singles sight (I never met anyone nor talk to anyone) and nearly got scammed by a bot. Those I’m sure were ego kibble and pride’s fault. I’m putting my wrong doings out there and asking for help. At this point I’m not even sure about the reasons why I did those things anymore. It’s been a long while since I’ve been here but I know I was able to find some help last time.
2 comments posted: Thursday, August 28th, 2025
