Hey little fighter, soon things will get brighter!
Feeling like a SadSack
I haven’t posted in years. I’m feeling blue. I was seeing somebody lightly, sometimes not so lightly after XWH, for a few years, which he ultimately ended in October. I had dated this person decades before and reconnected a few years ago. I haven’t made much, really any effort to connect with anyone new. I am lonely, busy and have things I should be getting done , but lonely. I have friends and family who I am grateful for, but lonely. I have always needed alone time and spend a lot of time alone, but this is different. I am sad that feelings change. I don’t need to get married, not even sure I could, but would like to love and be loved. I obsess over past relationships and the fact that things always change or end. I am not saying I am a total victim. I wasn’t always the greatest spouse. I just am feeling very low today. Walking has been helping immensely these past couple of weeks, but today I didn’t have the gumption, for even that. It is a semi-pity party, but more like a why even bother soirée. I’m not even sure what I want. Thought putting it into words might help. Thanks for reading.
8 comments posted: Wednesday, June 15th, 2022
