I use insight timer app (free version) on my phone. I love it. Can choose guided, with or w/o music, w/ or w/o religion, etc. Worth MORE than I paid (cuz it was free). I tried Calm, but felt the unpaid version was too limited. Insight also allows to choose how much time (5-10-15 min, etc) and to filter by benefit, so you can choose sleep or gratitude or motivation, etc.
I'm also recently listening to Rick Hansons' Meditate for Happiness. It's an interesting book and has some meditations. On a friend's recommendation, I recently bought a CD of his meditations, but haven't yet had a chance to try them.
There's a ton of stuff on hoopla for free - I can access it via my local library (I'm probably on Hoopla once a day or so - tonight I got through the first hour or so of Hollis' Living an Examined Life). I think I just searched meditation and got several hits.
There are also lots of CDs at my local library that I'd check out and give a whirl.
ETA - on the book front, I have a codependents anonymous I use, but some may find it heavy handed on the 12-steps.
I have another book I enjoy but I can't for the life of me remember it (I can see the front and the typeface, but not the darned name). I'm out of town but will see if I can track it down when I'm home again.
[This message edited by gmc94 at 1:20 AM, January 22nd, 2020 (Wednesday)]
M >25yrs/grown kids
DD1 1994 ONS prostitute
DD2 2018 exGF1 10+yrEA & 10yrPA... + exGF2 EA forever & "made out" 2017
9/18 WH hung himself- died but revived
It's rude to say "I love you" with a mouthful of lies